I think I used a mental shortcut and assumed their reason was due to frustration because a fairly common context for sentences like the one in the comment I replied to is due to reasons of disagreement or dislike due to opinion, quality, lack of information, or some other reason.
The game gets kinda meta on itself. This is mild spoilers: There's a greater overall plot that gets progressed by a looping simpler plot. The idea is that, you are instructed by a narrator to go to a cabin in the woods and slay the princess inside. The choices you make cause this plot to repeat with a twist. When the simple plot loops its influenced by what you did on the prior iteration of the simple plot. Each of these loops is actually you advancing down a branching story path, and you need enough of these branches completed to complete the greater overall plot.
Its sort of like the Stanley Parable, where you can defy the narrator, or go along with his demands. The fun is getting a reaction out of the narrator or any of the other characters by your actions or dialogue choices, and seeing the story change based on what you choose. However its still a visual novel, so its a lot of listening to dialogue.
Cartel torture and execution video. I tried typing up what I remembered of it, but even omitting half the details left me with a very gruesome and disturbing story. I'll just say that the casual nature of the men doing the torture was the most disturbing part. They laughed and took turns as they drank beer. They made other victims watch while having demented smiles across their faces. They delighted in the screams. I suppose not understanding Spanish was a blessing for a curious child.
I liked watching these as a kid. They played in the early morning before school. Sometimes the bubbles were just jokes or humorous observations. Othertimes, they were interesting bits of trivia in an age where the internet was still in its early days.
Steam itself works fine on Linux. I don't think I have a single game in my library that doesn't work. I'm using Arch (btw) and I've found that for my use case (internet browsing and video games) that I haven't had any major issues.
The two issues I do have are:
I still have my Windows install (dual boot) as a just in case backup, but its been months since I've used it.
Yeah, I'm going to have to agree. It had plenty of content to make up for its price tag.
Its a bit different for me. I start to shake a bit. Feels like I'm vibrating uncomfortably.
Asthma. People expect you to have dramatic TV style throat closing episodes where you turn blue grabing your throat as you gasp and gag. For me, an episode is just sudden onset hypoxia. I'll feel my lungs get tight, but because I'm still getting some air it can be hard to tell I'm suffocating, especially if I'm distracted. When it happens, I have about 3 - 5 minutes to catch it. If I fail to catch it, I'll quickly lose balance, struggle to speak, I'll be unable to think, and finally my vision darkens to a dot, and then I black out. I can appear fine, and then out faster than anyone expects.
Once I get a puff, I'm fine in 10 seconds (minus some shaking from the medication.)
Personally, a diet change helped me more than pot did, but there were days it eased my symptoms where nothing else would. If you try it, do not become a heavy user as it can fuck up your digestive system.
I learned from my own past that those who've suffered from hurt learn the best ways to cause the most of it. It is a skill that is taught to the unwilling.
The truth is that you will have to forgive them, and if you blame yourself, you must forgive yourself too. Forgiveness isn't anything but a tool to move on. You wrote the redflags to look out for in your post. You'll have to bail when you see them the next time you go to trust again. You're going to have to face the fears created by your trauma head on. You're going to have to be brave. It will not be easy. It will be hard as shit. But you cannot let this person control you anymore. Do not give this person the power to keep you from enjoying life. You will stumble and struggle putting yourself back out there. You will think recovery is impossible.
I had a long road recovering from my trauma, and I believe in your own power to heal from this. Just please do your best to not allow your own traumas to continue the cycle of pain.
I got COVID after taking all precautions because my father didn't wear a mask and took it home. I was sick for a month. I only left my bed to use the bathroom or eat. I literally slept the rest of the time. I probably should have gone to the hospital because I could hardly stay awake even just to eat. I remember waking up one day, and just knowing that I was recovering.
Recovery was hell. I couldn't taste, or smell anything. I had awful flu like symptoms. I was lethargic and I could hardly walk. It took two weeks to feel functional, and for three months my sense of taste was completely fucked.