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Appalachia is flooded and tons of people can't get clean water or evacuate due to roads collapsing. Opened Tumblr, saw a smug liberal practically orgasming over "you Trump voters" getting what we deserve.

I guess I'm fighting with my only friend again. I told him I explained something badly and he misunderstood it. He told me he's too stupid to have serious conversations with. I reiterated that the communication failure was on my end, and he's not stupid. He suddenly flipped the script and said I always make him feel stupid and that I think he's lesser than me. Even though he was calling himself stupid and I was trying to reassure him? I attempted to comfort him and asked what I could do better, since I actually really admire him, but he hasn't replied.

It's almost time to return my library book and I've barely touched it. I carry it everywhere with me, but we're so busy I have to work through my breaks and I pretty much fall asleep when I get home. I guess it's more of a hobby for well off people.

Maybe next week will be remotely decent.

Went on a coffee date with someone that went quite well, we're even making plans for a second date.

She's also been sending pictures of some of the rocks in her collection to me, which is awesome!

She has this barely-contained-chaotic-joy about her that's just awesome to see. We were talking intermittently for a few weeks before I got a glimpse of that joy, then we were talking quite a bit more. And then we went to get coffee which turned into lunch as well.

NGL last week was pretty great. Only the second successful date in the last 4 years for me, but I'll take any win I can.

Edit: Nevermind.

I mean she wants to be friends which is cool as she's an awesome person so having her among my very short list of friends (which has only shrunk over the years) would be great but she's not interested in me in a romantic kind of way which is a bummer. Guess it's back to the Gauntlet.

Last weekend was Folsom weekend, so right now I'm eepy and recovering from staying out far too late each night.

Not beehaw, but I hope I'm welcome to share my weekly worries anyways..

I've been taking on a little more tasks at work this past half year, but it's slowly starting to pour out of my agenda. This week is the start of another big task to add to my agenda in exchange for some other, "less important" tasks. It might be time to say "no" more, but I'm not very good at that. I wasn't very good at asking for help either, but I've learned to do that more because I had to. So I hope I can also learn to say "no" more in these coming weeks. Specifically to those people who depended on me for those "less important" tasks.

Working on an IT project, too. A website relaunch for a local waste disposal company. We are running behind with coding, but so is the customer with adding content. But it's gonna be a nice, beautiful site with lots of api connections and nifty tools for the end customer. It's fun for me.

I just finished creating a chatbot trained off Microsoft's dialogpt, and it felt really weird talking to it. I asked it if it had any plans and it responded with going to the beach in the south of France. I then shut it off.

It just felt weird to talk to it and hearing its response. Yes, there was a 3 sec delay, but I think I'll just put it aside for now.

Besides that, everything else has been going well. I'll be heading on vacation next week to see NASA's rocket launch to Europa.

hello ~~Cleveland~~ Beehaw! happy to be joining this pleasant little corner of the internet.

good news: I'm in the process of buying a house, after renting my whole life up to now. got lucky that the first home I toured in-person (after viewing probably 100+ homes on Zillow) I liked enough to put in an offer, and had the offer accepted. now I'm just going through inspection and mortgage approval crap.

bad news: I broke my big toe. not broken broken, apparently just a tiny chunk of bone flaked off where the ligament is attached. I put off going to the doctor about it, because I woke up with my toe swollen and painful, Dr. Google suggested that it was probably gout, and I didn't want to bother with a doctor visit if it was just going to be a lecture about eating healthier. so I hobbled around on a broken toe for almost 2 weeks before going in for X-rays and getting told it was broken. now I'm crossing my fingers that it'll heal up on its own in the Fancy Medical Shoe they gave me, and I won't have to have surgery on it. and it's a good reminder that sometimes I need to push past my ADHD and medical anxiety and go to the doctor anyway.

I got made redundant 3 weeks ago so im busy interviewing. Looking to land something right at the end of my 2 month notice period to protect the payout. Could be a big opportunity tonget ahead on the mortgage. I was looking to leave anyway so im accepting this turn of events with a big smile

Hmmm, sortof same-ish as last week. Rib still a little rough, doc said it was probably costochondritis from having COVID and will go away. Is taking its time but slowly going away :-\

I think Essentia (local major health system) pumps drugs into their air or something: I always get all excited and encouragey-happy at their offices. Doc convinced me to sign up for stuff and add another anxiolytic. I went in today to peep at one of the thera-things and eep! 8:00-15:00 groupapy four days a week! I declined for now but the critter there was very helpy and I'ma get a new therapist sometime 😅 Looking forward to a comfy one who can provide some hope and help nodnoddle The current one has offered to refer me for a helpycritter who I think will help me sort out all' the stuff I need to get set up to start becoming stable. Could be good! tentative wigglish-wobble!

Dunno if it's the meds or what but I keep having these weird perspective-shift things that make me feel all tiny and vulnerable >.<; Am mouse but not scaredy squishy mouse! Am cute wiggly mouse! I think maybe what's happening is something's dragging me out of my usual detached kind of state and making me feel stuff that's reasonably there anyway? Or it's just upsetting my wiggly skittery skittish lil mind, I guess. Idunno. :-\

Also, this fluffy cat likes me too much now and spends all night in my room MEOWING LOUDLY and messing with things on my desk and occasionally loafing on top of me. She's cute (and soft) but I wish she'd let me sleep :(

Not bad, actually working on licensing my IP/trademark to a restaurant group...so that's interesting.

I have been playing ps2 games via emulation and have been looking into 3d printing dvd cases so I can properly store all my dvds. I am also burning them into a backup so I don't have to plug in my external optical drive every time I want to watch a dvd. It is also better for preservation purposes. I am looking forword to your new social media platform especially if it part of the fediverse. I would love to join when its up.