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With your life, or artificially happy, knowing it’s temporary?

To be clear, this post is semi-autobiographical. My life’s not bad, just kind of dull. Recreational cannabis use is legal. Am I wrong to enjoy it? Should I focus on improving my life instead of getting high?

Recreational cannabis use is legal here. I took some before church, hoping to make the two hours more enjoyable.

When I walked into the chapel, I felt happy and relaxed and really good. That’s when I realized how I’m supposed to feel at church, and the fact that I never have.

Just like the prophet asked them to. But Mormons don’t follow the prophet when his words conflict with their personal politics.

My dad has COVID for the second time and it’s been quite serious both times. I’m almost sure he got it from church. It’s not right to throw away this life because you believe the next life will be better.

I think I remember this song. It seems familiar. YouTube recommended it based on other songs I was listening to. It was clearly popular. Do you remember it? What do you associate it with?

I haven’t been for a couple weeks. In that time, an older couple moved in. They have some peculiar ideas. The EQP and another older member already have a penchant for sharing deep doctrine. Today, the EQP and new guy chased each other down a couple rabbit holes (Jewish tradition and whether or not the elements have a spirit and intelligence) and it’s all literal with these people. There was some grumbling in the back row that “I don’t come to church for this stuff.” So the long-time ward member pipes up, says that “none of this has any bearing on our salvation,” and walks out.

The drama made it more interesting than usual. But I’m losing patience with the holier-than-thou know-it-alls. I’ll attend Sunday School to spend time with the wife, but I’m done with Elders Quorum.

I’m interested to see how Sunday School goes with this new couple attending. My wife might just lose patience, too. Here’s hoping.

What do you think? Temple of the one true living God? Or hotel lobby?

If you need a hint, I don’t hold a current temple recommend.

I'm writing this partly because I think others might be interested, partly because I want to know what others think of my setup, and partly because I'm going to upgrade my hardware and need to review my setup so that I can re-create it on the newer hardware.

I have an old 2009 iMac at home that wasn't being used anymore, so I installed Ubuntu server 2022.04 LTS. I have two printers, so I installed the CUPS manager, which allows my to print wirelessly from iPad, iPhones and my MacBook Air. For media, I run PlexMediaServer (video) and Navidrome. For content, I run Transmission, which I can manage from a web browser. For e-books, I use calibre which I access via a web browser (on my iPhone or a Kobo). For coding, I've installed Nginx, MariaDB and PHP.

My router has a built-in VPN, but I'd like to install WireGuard on the server. I'd also like to be able to collect and manage my family's photos. For now, I use MacOS Photos, but since we rarely plug our phones into the computer to sync them, they are usually only backed up to iCloud.

What else should I consider?

When you get to the end of your life, old and tired, and you look back on all the things you did and time you spent, what will make you say: yes, I did well and it was all worth it?

Put another way, if you have an extra hour tomorrow with nothing planned, what could you do with yourself to later say: I’m glad I did that? What if you have an unplanned day? Or a week? Does how you use that time change? Would the choice of how to use that time be more or less deliberate, depending on how long you have? Does that choice define you as a person?

When I’m unhappy, I feel like I’m doing life wrong. I’d rather be happy. But is happiness the point of life, or is there more to it? If I pursue happiness, mine first then for those around me, is that selfish? But if there’s a bigger purpose, then what about people with Alzheimer’s or dementia who can’t recall recent experiences or make plans?

They bishopric member who was conducting today opened with his testimony. A long-time friend of his recently left the church. That bothered him, but he listened to a podcast (the guest was Don Bradley?) and he’s comforted to know that there are good answers to the difficult questions. My wife murmured her agreement. She doesn’t want to know what the tough questions are, much less the answers, she’s just glad to know that there are answers.

The worst quote: “Everyone who leaves the church and is honestly seeking the truth, eventually returns.” It starts from the assumption that the church is true and arrives at the judgement that anyone who doesn’t accept the teachings of the church must not be sincerely seeking truth.

You can’t convince anyone by explaining the facts. Psychologist Adam MASTROIANNI wrote an insightful and entertaining piece about why that’s the case.

We can’t de-convert our family and friends, just like they can’t re-convert us. Missionary work is a waste of time, except for the experience of the missionary. And hypocrisy in leaders is what will destroy the Church.

Our deeply-held beliefs, in the castle’s keep (in the author’s analogy) remind me of this XKCD: https://xkcd.com/2347/ represented by the “random package” near the bottom.

I’ll be teaching elders quorum today. The GC talk is boring and participation is always the same handful of people. But I don’t mind standing in front to guide the conversation. I mentioned to my wife that there probably won’t be many families in attendance because it’s summer.

She said: even less during second hour. She had to go out to the car last week and the parking lot was almost empty. A lot of families are leaving after sacrement.

I don’t know if it means anything. It’s anecdotal, but church is boring and when the weather is nice, even the believers know there are better ways to spend a Sunday.