Hey I've been there, and after reflecting on it, the truth is, (at least from my perspective), you don't really, truely want it yet. Don't take that as judgement, I'm certainly not in a place to judge, but I've kicked severeral multi-year addictions, and weed was one I had the pleasure of just "deciding to quit". For me quitting weed came with breaking a friendship of the longtime smoking buddy I had, though after getting off of it and reflecting, I realize he was just using me as a convenient spot to store his weed. YMMV, but I think you got this, and hopefully my experience lends some light onto your difficulties with quitting.