Hey lemmos, and lemmettes. Just got off jury duty for a 3 day civil trial. First time juror, had a BLAST despite my expectations, really enjoyable to see a functioning justice system in person, and I also met cute gal also early 20s who was on the jury.

Now some context, I have not had a date since my ex cheated back around the begining of COVID so ive basically lost any sembelece of self-confidence when it comes to flirting. I'm confident in myself as a person, I'm pretty rad if I'm not being modest, but when it comes to chatting up the ladies, I mentally only can visualize rejection.

Now I was planning on asking her out for dinner or drinks this weekend following the case, but on the way out she was caught behind walking and talking with some other peeps. I got caught up in my anxious brain and just ended up bailing. Sent a FB messenger pm on the metra ride home but the profile is inactive so I think I missed my chance at a genuine connection.

Why is my monke brain like this. Why cant I let myself be happy. **All I want is to give somebody the love I can no longer seem to give myself. **

UPDATE: Connected over linkedin and gave it a shot. In a relationship :( . Still, glad that I tried, and thank you to all the commenters who helped settle my anxiety.

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[–] incogtino@lemmy.zip 9 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Classic anxiety (not trying to diagnose you, but I've been there)

Do you meditate? This is by far the biggest contributor to being able to get out of my own head. It helps me appreciate the difference between how I feel (including the physical reactions to stress) and what is really happening

The second biggest contributor is exercise

[–] 3ntranced@lemmy.world 3 points 1 year ago (1 children)

No worries, clinically diagnosed and medicated lol. I do meditate and I've always been really mindful of the present. The problem i have though is I hyperanalyze, and in doing so change my perception of reality in the here and now.

Exercise though...I really need to start actively doing. I'm in no sense of the word overweight, always been on the slender side no matter the diet. But I've adopted the toxic mindset of exercise is just to lose weight.

[–] Tarquinn2049@lemmy.world 2 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) (1 children)

Yeah, it's unfortunate that most of the benefits of exercise aren't immediate and obvious. Makes it much harder to form the habit. But it has pervasive and far reaching benefits to almost every aspect of life, it would be weird how helpful it is if it wasn't basically what we were pretty much "designed" to do.

Exercise games helped me to form the habit, basically gave something immediate and obvious to focus on, while I built up the habit. Then the important part was to then transition to a more stable long term exercise style, because eventually the game will get stale and lose it's motivational value.

Specifically I used ring fit and VR games to get started, and then transitioned to gps games on my phone for outdoor exercise. Then storyline based walking/running games. I still have a hard time with going to a gym, but that is mostly social anxiety and fear of failure. I do know it can be a really good option if I can get over the initial hump, just haven't managed. I'm thinking maybe hiring a trainer will probably help with that. I can usually get over my hurdles if someone else is relying on me, and a trainer would also help me make sure I'm not doing anything wrong. I know the strangers/future friends at a gym would also do that, but turns out I haven't been able to talk myself across that line yet, lol.

But yeah, enough about that. Mostly just keep in mind there is likely a path to get where you want, you might just have to get creative to find it.

[–] 3ntranced@lemmy.world 0 points 1 year ago

I have a Rift S mainly for occasional VR painting and some risque activities wink wink but havent gotten as heavily into other games like Beat Saber or "physical movement based" games.

A big factor I think is that partner or companionship like a trainer or friend to turn it from 'working on myself' to 'just having a good time'. Problem is I don't have any semblance of friends these days, and finding people who would be interested is hard since working out is many of their CENTRAL interest when looking.

I wish we had a like AA for people with a 4chan brain like me to reintegrate into a healthy lifestyle.