All my life I thought that she would love me, if I achieved certain test scores or finished a certain degree.
Then there was high school graduation night. I had worked really hard to get there and I will never forget how she made that annoyed face to let me know that she wanted to leave early. It was like a punch in the gut because it became clear to me at that point that there was nothing I could do to make her love me.
She wasn't capable of giving love. That's really fucking sad and I am still grappling with it, but it gets easier.
All my life I thought that she would love me, if I achieved certain test scores or finished a certain degree.
Then there was high school graduation night. I had worked really hard to get there and I will never forget how she made that annoyed face to let me know that she wanted to leave early. It was like a punch in the gut because it became clear to me at that point that there was nothing I could do to make her love me.
She wasn't capable of giving love. That's really fucking sad and I am still grappling with it, but it gets easier.