Deestan

• Saturday: Event in town, with small kids, socializing
• Sunday: Teambuilding event
• Monday: Work strategy meeting
• Tuesday: Held a presentation and socialized
• Wednesday: Work strategy meeting
• Thursday: Course w/group sessions, parents over for dinner
• Friday: Work event, work event
• Saturday: Museum trip, family visit

Throughout the week, slow buildup of joint pain, feverish feeling, lack of appetite, swollen throat, buzzing head, torpor, lack of focus. Today I am just broken.

These are all (for me) normal physical reactions to overextending myself socially or spending time in sensory intense environments for any amount of time. They are also symptons I would get if I caught the head cold that is going around.

It feels extremely silly that I have literally zero idea if I have a cold or not.

Anyway, treatment is same either way: Take it easy for a while. Mostly wanted to share my frustrating confusion and maybe hear if others have similar experiences and how they manage. :)

This is part strong recommendation and part wanting to know thoughts of others who have read it. :)

Fern Brady is a scottish comedian who grew up with undiagnosed autism in a very catholic small town.

It's a brutally honest and personal story, and she manages to write everything in a way that I found captivating. She can describe situations of absolute torture in a way that makes them seem both heartbreaking, and almost funny in their absurdity. Like a scene where she got recommended an app to help her with meltdowns and describes how she is crying and punching her fist bloody against her living room wall, while with her other hand opening an app and seeing suggestions like "think of a puppy!", "count to ten and think of the last nice thing you ate!"

For me, the description of a years long struggle to push through a medical system with little and outdated understanding of autism resonnated deeply.

Space trains yesss

Music reminds me of Terraria!