> Greentext

>be me

>be philistine

>find an OC greentext

>OP really baring their soul

>downvote that dumb bitch

>chortle to myself and pull from the cavern of chips beside me

>screech for help when the bag constricts around my slender 60 inch wrist

I appreciated your post, friend. I actually might have some advice on the infection. Swapping to gentler soaps to reduce irritation can ease skin cracking and let skin heal. Frequently changing towels and sheets, avoiding unnecessarily wetting affected areas, and making certain that any razors or washcloths (which should also be changed or washed frequently) are kept outside of the shower to avoid bacterial buildup. Skin issues are a nightmare to fix.

Nothing is wrong with your CS skills, you have tried many things, most devs start with less experience than you and still get good jobs. You're confusing marketing fueled life stories on linkedin with real people. Don't worry about starting and abandoning personal projects, we all do that. Believe me, it will be easier to build nice things once you will be paid for it.
Also you should start some hobby that makes you meet people, for example a martial art (there's something for everyone, don't trust stereotypes), it will help you grow your social skills in a controled environment which should make it easier for your social anxiety.
We've been there, it will get better for you too.

'22 CS Grad like you who took the masters route. Let me tell you this tendency only gets amplified. I work with cool interdiscplinary projects showing off my experience and educating normies, not doing any DSA although I am gonna graduate in May, no job and have nightmares but still not doing anything to improve.

Take small steps towards the job seeking OP. You or I will not ever land a job magically out of nowhere, keep working on it and fail a few interviews too. You are better than many people and will make it big time.

Maybe is some cultural difference, but I consider quite common to live with parents in early 20s.

I lived with mine until 26. I had nor money nor experience to live alone until that.

In CS coding is not the only usefull stuff. Maybe your thing is testing, sysadmin, devops, etc.

In fact, a bit of coding, shell and docker is a good starting point for a devops role.

You're good, OP. Don't let exaggerated success stories let you down.