I'm so sorry.

One of my childhood dogs started having seizures until one night she started seizing and just never stopped. We laid her in the laundry basket with towels and I gently held her down so she didn't thrash too hard to further hurt herself.

My dad called the vet to see if they could have her put down ASAP. They said they couldn't, but it was well after hours though. I probably sat there for 3-4 hours or so myself until finally my dad just told me to go to bed and he'd take her in the morning. I even offered to put her down myself because, I mean fuck. I couldn't just sit there and watch her struggle let alone imagine how she felt. We tried to do whatever we could to help ease her pain/passing including crushing up a muscle relaxer with water and syringing it into her mouth. I would have tried anything.

I don't know when I feel asleep but it was hard not to hear an occasional sound even through probably 2-3 closed doors and down a flight of stairs.

I’m so sorry, that sounds awful to see :/ Try to remember him as the whole of his life, the last bit was only a blip of what I’m guessing was an otherwise long and happy life

Sorry to hear that. My dog did the same thing. It was just staring off in the distance letting out moans and lots of heavy breathing for a few hours. It was absolutely soul crushing. I just sat there with my buddy in my lap.

That's why I put down my cats before they start to suffer to much. I don't make the choice lightly but when I see them start to show signs of major problems it is time.