It has been a defence mechanism after meeting too many toxic people. I shut up everywhere, never expressing emotions or opinions. Tired of getting called out for strange ideas or expressions.

Fuck it all. It destroyed 15 years of my life. Getting out of the cycle is not easy!

[–] businessfish@lemmy.blahaj.zone 2 points 9 months ago

i'm glad you posted about it - it's something i, and i'm sure many other people who are struggling, tend to think about.

i think it's generally a good thing to talk about these sorts of topics, especially ones like depression where it's easy to get lost in your own thoughts and it can feel like you're the only one suffering like this. i know for a fact that it helped me realize that i'm not alone and that there are ways out of the pit i found myself in, despite feeling like it would never get better and my suffering was so unique that there was no cure.

granted, commiserating alone won't get you back to a happy baseline, but it does broadcast this to others who might not realize it: you are not alone, there are people who care, and it is not impossible to be happy again. i wish you the best.